Comments on mixedepisodes: The mad ones!!

Your dream reminds me of the old Kate Bush song ca...

2008-08-22T12:11:00.000-07:00

Your dream reminds me of the old Kate Bush song called "Under Ice" and the very last lines of the song are "it's meeeeee....."

I'm glad to see you are here and writing occasiona...

2008-08-17T19:37:00.000-07:00

I'm glad to see you are here and writing occasionally. I missed you too. and seeing your comment among the many drove that home quite a bit.

I feel the same way, I can go on and on about all the various incarnations of me.

The only thing I come back to again and again is writing. I'm glad I can come back, since one day, I may not be able to. Someday, the madness might catch up with me and it's a scary thought.

where are you blue?feels a little empty when you'r...

2008-08-16T07:18:00.000-07:00

where are you blue?
feels a little empty when you're not(miss you)around.

kerouac was bang on. the mad ones are the most ex...

2008-08-13T13:46:00.000-07:00

kerouac was bang on. the mad ones are the most exciting, the most fun and most real. i married one. she experiences every emotion to the fullest, hers and everybody else's. it's amazing. sample on, and rave on. you're living.

Hoping you can cycle a little faster our way. We ...

2008-08-04T17:21:00.000-07:00

Hoping you can cycle a little faster our way. We miss you.

Harumph - late as always - I apologise. My goodnes...

2008-08-01T16:54:00.000-07:00

Harumph - late as always - I apologise. My goodness BBE - I am so happy to read you as ever - you have just described how I have always felt/feel. Sometimes I get so enthused and excited about things/people I could burst - other time I just want to run away. I was going to be a journalist, a stand up comedian, a developmental psychologist, a novelist, a tv presenter, a jeweller and the rest. Never been diagnosed - thought it was just mad old me. Reading what you wrote makes so much sense. And you wrote it so well - I agree with Momo - you are a brilliant and clever person.

it is the madness in people (or rather a hint of i...

2008-07-28T21:10:00.000-07:00

it is the madness in people (or rather a hint of it) that has been responsible for human progress. If all of us had been dormant and docile, we would still be sending smoke signals instead of reading each other's blogs.
nice post though

Diiiiiiiiiaaaaaannnnnnnnnaastop ignoring my e-mail...

2008-07-24T01:22:00.000-07:00

Diiiiiiiiiaaaaaannnnnnnnnaa

stop ignoring my e-mails =P

-V

I just got back from Victoria and Cher said that s...

2008-07-22T07:37:00.000-07:00

I just got back from Victoria and Cher said that she wakes up angry every morning, not sure why, we didn't discuss it much, but at least she's consistent.

I don't wake up angry but all it takes is looking at the news to get me worked up.

I notice that folks that don't stick with something often often take on too much and become a bit overwhelmed about all of it. Simplify, put that on your fridge.

Grieving, everyone does it in their own way, or not, it's up to them and is no one else's business.

hey, nice insight into a mind!!!!so embarking on s...

2008-07-20T21:11:00.000-07:00

hey, nice insight into a mind!!!!

so embarking on so many things and giving up soon after is a BP symptom? at home they say its just a fascination for new things and the matrk of an unstable person. (i seem to have it a lot - in fact im quitting th job i used to enjoy for a year, because i amnt enjoying it anymore)

and anyways, i dont want to medicalise my whims.. ill just continue 'sampling life', like x.dell says..

Everybody-I think what is really bothering me so m...

2008-07-20T09:55:00.000-07:00

Everybody-I think what is really bothering me so much is that I feel that I am limited because there are things that I simply can't do and I know I can't do it. And I suppose everyone is like this to an extent but I think maybe I am more so. But maybe not.....maybe I just think I am. Or maybe it's becuase I've always tried to do things that are so wrong for me and have become completely discouraged. But I think that there must be environments that I would thrive in but I can't find them. Truly, what I would like to do is write but I'm not sure I have the talent plus, we all know that there are so many people who can't earn a living at it.

EOTR-I still haven't read Jamieson. She is on my ...

2008-07-20T09:44:00.000-07:00

EOTR-I still haven't read Jamieson. She is on my list. I ordered a book by her from the library and accidently ordered the wrong one. She is at the top of my list right now.

Well, like I said I actually love being this way. I think it's intrinsically who I am. Without that quality I would be chemically lobotomized.
There is nothing wrong with it except the fact that I never see anything through. I get tired of that.
Emily Dickonson was probably BP too and I relate so completely with her.
I think I am in a grieving phase right now. I lost a lot of things to this and I can't stop thinking about it.

AH-I've actually never heard of Writer's Union etc...

2008-07-20T09:38:00.000-07:00

AH-I've actually never heard of Writer's Union etc.... I will check on that as soon as I get done with this and read your blog. I've read some stuff about how our brains are actually changing. It's from the distractions and things that I was talking about. They are actually developing larger in some areas and smaller in others. We are adapting. We are losing social skills and the ability to deal with others as well, because we have grown more isolated. We are also losing the ability to stick with something and think deeply, we skim the surface much more. At least that is what they say. The guy who wrote all the books about emotional intelligence talks about it.

Madness-How did I get so lucky as to get a friend ...

2008-07-20T09:35:00.000-07:00

Madness-How did I get so lucky as to get a friend like you. Even when I often don't stop by your blog. Well, all of you for that matter.
If my sister meets her inner bastard, I will limit my contact to her by telephone and definitely will not go into any rooms that she doesn't give me permission to go in.
God I wish it was legal here, though I'm not sure it would be too smart of me.
As far as crafts, it's getting much harder. There are machines that do so much now and things can be mass produced. You should see the embroidery machines and the quilting machines. They are huge, you would need a complete room for one. You can computer program them and just sit back and watch them sew. Lots of people in 3rd world countries out of work because of these. You can go to the internet and download patterns. But I don't have the same taste as many people who are into these things. No puppies and little girls with bonnets for me.

I think I would find Gerontology interesting, though I think there are other things that I would find more so.

I have to believe that all of this is for a purpose. I hope one day I find out what it is.

Good, you met my hillbilly friend. He's good peopl...

2008-07-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

Good, you met my hillbilly friend. He's good people.

I do agree with X--it does sound like sampling. What's wrong with that? There are people out there who don't do shit; nothing interests them but what's on TV, the latest movie--they are consumers of pop culture.

Have you read Kay Jamison's Touched By Fire? (If I already suggested this, forgive me.) It deals mainly with Lord Byron, but it lists a good amount of great artists, poets, composers who suffered from all sorts of things. Jamison makes Byron the poster child for bipolar, something that had never occurred to me until I read his book. And look at what he did. Shelley was also possibly bipolar. He's a great poet. Faulkner was a drunk who probably self-medicated as did Fitzgerald. Katherine Ann Porter had a hard time sticking to one thing, but when she did, she wrote beautifully (you will love her short stories.) It's easy for me to say, but try not to be so hard on yourself.

Hi,I am going through the Cruel Virgin's List, and...

2008-07-20T01:25:00.000-07:00

Hi,

I am going through the Cruel Virgin's List, and looking at who is naughty, or nice!! I concur with X. On experiencing life.

That was a lot of reading, have you given getting your Press Creditionals, and maybe a writer's Union???? It would give you the ability to study all the stuff you want without much time into each piece???? Just a thought.

The Bi Polar thing; I wouldn't sweat it. The Earth it self is changing. That is the reason so many people are loosing thoughts, concentration, and can't quite put their finger on what their primal animal is trying to tell them to do....Uh, but I don't write about that on my blog, but is what I believe.

Peace and Freedom

Jack Kerouac would have laughed at me.Your sisters...

2008-07-19T13:01:00.000-07:00

Jack Kerouac would have laughed at me.
Your sisters bitch (I love it, ha)
Wait till she meets her inner bastard, an undergraduate of Blue Beard or some such.

I gave up smoking tobacco (not hash or weed) because there’s not much of a hit.

I thought that my brilliant creativity would make up for my lack of know how.
Hey, I’ve actually met someone (in that way) is the same as me.
What a smack in the jaw to know you have the temperament/creativity but you’ve got to have the skill as well. I hate that. I still believe it is the commercial world demands that aspect and some do manage to get over it like Bob Dylan for example. He was in the right time at the right place; what are the chances of that, one in zillions?
You can connect to an audience out there I’m sure of it but that don’t make it happen.

Gerontology- never ever heard of it I looked it up
The scientific study of the biological, psychological, and sociological phenomena associated with old age and aging.
Jesus, sounds really easy, you’re not taking on much are you.

Yes, I might just creep up on you and give you a little slap of a hammer (not too hard) every now and again to slow you down might be in order, but I guess that happens naturally, your body does that.

Is our mind the same as the Medieval one?
Give me a boy/girl till he’s six years.
That’s when we’ve completed our script for life. You’ve been trapped like all of us for a very long time.

You are brilliant, but you need confirmation of the fact from some where, somehow, someone.

Sometimes I feel, wonder why if there is a loving god why does he not grant this simple request to set us free.
Great to hear you feel better.

x-Oh, and your right my interests seem to be sort ...

2008-07-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

x-Oh, and your right my interests seem to be sort of circular they never change, it is my interest in them that changes. Each one will eventually come around again it's just that sometimes I feel very excited about it and the rest of the time I could care less.

x-You hit the nail on the head...as ususl. That's...

2008-07-19T09:02:00.000-07:00

x-You hit the nail on the head...as ususl. That's why being like this is so confusing. For instance before I lost my job, I was manic and I suspected that I might be but it seemed strange to go to the doctor and say "Help me Doctor!! I have too many interests!" I mean, how neurotic is that!
And like you said, I am a person who is naturally nterested in many things....am I in danger of going to the doctor and trying to get aspects of my personality that I have decided for some reason or another are not normal or acceptable medicated away? Where do you draw the line?
I talk to a gentleman on a forum for people who are bipolar and that is exactly what has happened to him. He has been medicated to such a degree that he feels like he is not himself anymore. Frankly, I couldn't comply with that. But he appears to have more problems than I have and was once a danger to himself and this is why the doctors think it is necessary. But he's so depressed....he calls it being killed and blind etc...it's very sad. Like I said, I honestly think that I wouldn't be able to comply with the medicine, it would just be too much for me. He is having a difficult time complying but is because he trusts his doctors.
Well, from what I understand....bp's lose their insight when they are manic and need a friend or family member to let them know when they have gone manic. My sister understands me very well and would not try to manipulate me. I trust her judgement she is very astute. She said she thought I was manic and I believe her.
It's great to be interested in lots of things but this was too much. However, being the way that I am is enjoyable as well, as long as it doesn't go too far. Only thing is, I just wish that I could stick with something. Ist's frustrating.

Do you ever go back to something once you've dropp...

2008-07-18T17:21:00.000-07:00

Do you ever go back to something once you've dropped it? Just curious. I mean, you've been at blogging for more than three weeks.

I'm wondering. You've delved into so many things, if only for a short time. Seems to me more like someone sampling life than anything else. While I can see where this would be debilitating, I would be hesitant to pathologize your natural state. Would it be possible, for example, to adjust to your difference?

Again, just curious.